You're how far along??

Over the 'hump'?  Most days I think so...we will be officially at 18 weeks pregnant on Monday.  Amazing.  I still don't believe that I will be holding a little one that grew inside of me in just a couple months.  Sometimes my disbelief scares me to death.  I have been telling myself all along, it will become real when we hear the heartbeat at 13 weeks, it will become real when you start showing, it will become real when....I just don't know when it will become real, I can only hope soon.  The 20 wk sonogram is scheduled two weeks from Monday, and provided the baby cooperates we will find out the sex.  Sure I would like it to be a little girl, but honestly it doesn't matter that much to me.  I am just praying that the baby is healthy and growing like it should be.  Because let's face it, mama is still at her pre-pregnancy weight and barely has a rounded belly.  Those are my biggest fears right now...so maybe it will be real after we walk out with a 'clean bill of health' and lots of adorable pictures from the sonogram, maybe.

Thank goodness the next two weeks will FLY by...because we literally will be flying.  I am so excited to go on vacation to Mexico, see a wedding on the beach, and eat lots of yummy food (and maybe gain some weight!??)!  We bought the tickets while we knew there would be a good chance I would be pregnant, so we also bought the insurance that we could get our money back if the doctor said no, you don't need to be going.  But the OB had no problem and said to go have a great time!  So we will be!  I have my back-up insulin plan all ready to go and plenty of test strips and pump supplies and syringes and...

I know I should really relax about the baby being ok, my sugars really have been quite excellent and after I lost about 4 lbs in the first trimester, I have gained that back so I am at my pre-pregnancy weight...I just need to have a little faith in the miracle of life growing inside me.  :)